Many of you know I had my CT scan on July 10th and you are wondering why I haven’t told you my results yet. Mostly, it’s because I broke my foot on July 10th, right after my CT scan, and life has taken some unexpected turns. Since it is my right foot, I can’t drive. Since I can’t put any weight on it, I am on crutches for 6 weeks. This means that the tasks of daily living, like cooking, eating, and dressing, are about all I have time to do.
The CT scan showed that the tumor in my lung has grown from 1.5 cm (November, 2011) to 1.8 cm. There is no other change. The good news is that this is still very slow-growing. The bad news is that it has grown.
I had decided that if it had grown, I would have a cryoablation. Now that my foot is broken, it needs all my healing energy. Since an ablation would be another trauma for my body, the recommendation is that I wait for the ablation.
I had been hoping that this CT scan would show no growth. I know that suffering comes from wanting things to be different than what they are. “Blessing the present” means blessing even this. Yet another lesson in acceptance. So, on July 10th, two new things washed up on my beach that redirected my healing journey.
I’m feeling blessed by the love and assistance that is coming my way as a result of my broken foot. After 12 days of this limited mobility, I’ve had rides from 6 different people; Carol did my grocery shopping; Carolyn did some laundry, and she and Brian, her husband, distributed Cancer as a Turning Point brochures; Pat and Raylin changed my sheets; Vince took out my garbage; Bob watered my plants; and both Lee and Maria have gone to the Post Office for me. Even though it’s not easy for me to be dependent on the kindness of others, I’m most grateful for the love that is being expressed in these acts of kindness.
Another blessing of my broken foot is that my empathy and compassion are increasing. I’ve never used crutches before and had no idea how difficult it is, and how many things just can’t be done when your hands are being used to hold you up. I’m grateful that I get to learn this lesson in a 6-week experience instead of 6 months (Catherine was on crutches for 6 months when she broke her leg).
I’m also grateful to have Jeanne Wallace’s expertise on nutrition to assist with healing my broken bone. I’m cooking up bone broth as I’m writing this, am adding several supplements to my regimen, and am stopping what I’ve been taking for anti-angiogenesis. A healing bone needs angiogenesis to repair.
My healing journey continues with what seems like a detour, but since all we have is now, this is my new path. Healing my foot and living with my lack of mobility is what’s happening, at least until August 22nd when it gets X-rayed again.